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Today is the day before Christmas Eve. I enjoyed a breakfast with my sons this morning and I am preparing for hopefully a short work day tomorrow. (Nurses are never allowed time off for each and every holiday).
I sit here in my comfy gown, sipping my warm coffee and ponder the holidays.
I plan on spending some time with my Father along with his "other family" and will see my sons for a bit on Christmas Day. (It sucks having to share sometimes).
Comfortable in my own company, I can't help but to feel lonely sometimes and the holidays do reinforce some of my loneliness. How I would love to have my house over running with my sons, their significant others and have that special someone in my life beside me as well.
Don't get me wrong, I'm happy. I just do not enjoy being alone on the holidays. I will paint my face along with my smile, be and do what I have to do for the holidays. Don't be surprised if I win an Oscar for this year's performance.
and if he only had asked..Had asked me just ONCE what I wanted for Christmas, What I wanted from Santa....
I would have said...All I want for Christmas...is for you to love me.
xx
